I've Always Been Crazy...

I have an odd want to go on a road trip. Who's with me?

Incredibly exhausted but omg, it was so worth it.

Best.birthday.ever.

Mmm... best wife ever! :D

Reading the book in short spurts. Donner is here, Star too.

Still not sure that this is a good idea but sometimes it's oddly...not comforting, but... oh I really don't know.

Still craving. Least I'm not the only one any more. Heh.

We're batshit insane. All three of us.

Reading "The Heroin Diaries" (I think I'm actually insane...) but at the beginning they have like a...cast list (he calls it a cast list) and under Nikki's name a little bit of the description is "a man who was so hooked on heroin and cocaine that he had to die twicebefore he began to contemplate a more positive lifestyle."

Familiar much? *snorts*

I'm not sure that it's a very wise decision to read this only I relate completely. Only, it's because I DO relate that I can't stop reading.

Craving.

Bravo, Casper.

No.

Just no.

Seriously, fuck off. I don't need it today. Or any day.

*curled up in a ball, shaking a little*

And If I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame.

I'm thinking there must be something in the water.

Shit.

Kayleigh Renee? You better not be next!

Go to urban dictionary​.​​​com and type in your answer​to each question in the search​box, then write​the FIRST​ definition ​it gives ​you.

1. Your Name: Caz - A crazy, but very nice person


2. Your Age: 30 - A 30 pack 12 oz cans of beer.


3. One Of Your Friends: Sweep - In sports (basketball and baseball, mainly) when one team wins every game in a series.


4. What You Should Be Doing: Sleeping - To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in. [*snickers >.>*]


5. Your Favorite Color: Red - 1) a communist
2) CCC tablet (Coricidin, OTC anti-tussive medicine)


6. Your Birthplace: Long Beach - A big city in Southern California that's in the county of L.A. that consists of 2 popular sides, the east and the north side.


7. Last Person You Talked To: Nessa - The term used when a person is so cool...even the word cool is not cool enough... [damn right!]

8. Last Thing You Had To Drink: 1) Short for the drug, Cocaine.
2) Short for the beverage, Coca Cola. [UGH! >.<]


9. Your Nickname: Cazzie - not defined yet.

Because you KNOW this will be me with both my girls in a few years time. (Read lots!)

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Lalalalalalalalala...

it's not happening.

No. Just NO.

I love you.

A high pitched scream rang through the house, followed by a tinkling laugh that was too much like her mother’s. Nessa looked up from where she was reading, curled up on the couch, Jagger gurgling in the high chair after just finishing his dinner.

“Mommy, Mommy! Tell Daddy t’stop!”

“Tell Daddy to stop what, baby?” Nessa smirked a little as she caught her husband’s eye as he ‘stalked’ into the room.

“’Keeps runnin’ af’ me! Says T-Rex!”

Caz roared loudly then, startling Jagger slightly but that was followed by a giggle from the younger boy and then an attempt at copying his father that made everyone in the room laugh.

“That’s right! I’m a T-Rex and I’m going to eat you all!” he roared again and made after his daughter, his arms out in claws.

Kayleigh squealed again, giggling before going to hide behind her mother, wrapping her arms around Nessa’s legs and burying her face into the fabric there.

“Can’t get me, Mommy protect me!” she said, quite determinedly as she looked around, a grin splitting her face, one that was ALL him.

“And what if Mommy loves T-Rex more, hmm?” Caz teased.

“Nuh uh! Mommy loves baby girl more, Daddy!”

Caz laughed at that and again locked eyes with Nessa, sharing a private joke without words. As it was, Kayleigh was truly a Daddy’s Girl and has been since before she was born, the bond between them just getting stronger as she got older.

“Are you sure about that?” Nessa smiled, looking down at Kayleigh.

“Uh huh!”

“Sure sure?”

“Uh HUH, Mommy!”

Nessa laughed then, shaking her head, grinning towards Caz as he moved towards them both, swooping behind them with speed enough that the little girl would not be able to move away before sweeping her up into his arms and proceeding to making chewing noises in the general direction of her stomach with the usual ‘om nom nom’ sound that made Kayleigh squeak happily and try to squirm away.

“Mommy! Mommy help! Daddy eat me!” she squirmed more as Caz pulled her close again, ‘om nom nomming’ her even more until they were both out of breath and all three of them were red with giggling.

“You’re all mad, but I love you!” Nessa giggled, shaking her head, her heart swelling with love as she looked over her family, complete in the four of them. Grinning she picked Jagger up from his high chair, cradling him before picking him up and swooping him like an airplane as the children were carried into the front room and they all curled up on the sofa, their eyes already drooping.

“Ever’one nap?” Kayleigh asked, snuggling closer to her Daddy, her head finding his chest as it always did, Nessa’s head on his shoulder and their little boy curled up against her breast.

“Everyone nap,” Caz said, sleep staining his voice as he closed his eyes and yawned, kissing everyone on the forehead and snuggling closer to them all. A sleepy smile crossed his face as he waited for their children to fall asleep before murmuring “I love you” to Nessa, waiting for her words in return before letting sleep overcome him.

Casper straightened out his shirt and tightened the tie. He carefully made sure that the rest of his suit was as perfect as it could be before taking a deep breath and turning towards Sweep and Cherry.

"How do I look?" he asked, the nervousness clear in his voice.

"A million dollars," Sweep pegged with a grin, turning towards Cherry then.

He was nervous, he wasn't going to deny it, but he wouldn't admit it out loud either. He knew Nessa would see right through him though, she always did, and for that he was glad, especially on days like this because they didn't need words and therefore he didn't have to find them. She would understand completely, and he knew she would feel the same. He didn't exactly think he would ever be getting married but he was and it had never felt so right as it did now, and he couldn't wait to make Janessa his wife. His wife... not that she hadn't already been everything to him since the day they met despite the choices and mistakes he had made.

He shook his head and dispelled those thoughts, he would be a father soon and a husband by the end of the day and he'd never been happier.

Because I amuse myself far too much;

( *whistles innocently* )